Cheers to the wish

 Dear Guardian, 

Today marks a decade since I received the news of your passing. I tend to remember a lot of details about that time during this month. Some vividly clear. Some blurry. It’s funny how this month holds some of my fondest memories of you too. I guess nature always finds a balance. A vivid memory is how the my brain kept listing all the “things” you won’t be around for. 

You haven’t been around for 10 years and that list has been at the centre of my tango with grief. I’ve put together a list of things I’d like to share with you. 

1. When Maroon 5 released Memories, you’re one of the people who came to mind. I know you liked them. Only made the lyrics deal with me even more. Today my emotions are set at “Cheers to the wish you were here, but you’re not…” 
2. This may not be news to you but Conclave begins tomorrow. Imagine that. I wonder what you’d have to say about it. You gifted me with a unique perspective of God. I still carry it with me. 
3. You were right about milk tart. I can’t believe I used to low key judge you. I’ve come to enjoy it. It brings back memories of you…
4. I understand now why unity was important to you. I wish we would have listened to you better. Adulting came and dealt with us. 
5. Kaizer Chiefs isn’t doing well. I know you’d still be “Khosi for life” ✌🏾🤣. We lost to pirates this past week. We’re facing them again this weekend and I’m just not looking forward to it. Watching the derby with you was EVERYTHING. 
6. I’m living in my vocation. Seeing you walk in yours inspired me in so many ways. 
7. You’re gone but not forgotten. 
8. Project i-can’t-mention is in motion. I wish you’d given me a clearer heads up instead of the casual “you’ll see when you get there”. I didn’t even imagine I would. 
9. I see now why you bet on us. We’re all grown and doing amazing things. I think you’d be proud. 
10. Naturally, the circle is bigger. You’d be entertained by the new characters. They’re definitely going to know about you and your teachings. The one about saints won’t be a bad place to start, would it? Or maybe I should settle for the concept of laughing at Will? Yeah, that sounds about right 😂

I’ve felt robbed by death since I heard you were gone and I still do. No amount of maturity will curb that.

I hate to admit it though, but through mourning your absence life has taught me to appreciate our paths crossing. On good days, I take walks with Gratitude and find comfort. I hope today is one of them. 

Continue to rest…