To me

 It's that time of the year folks. Yi befday yam!

In the early chapters of my life this day wasn't complete without a cake, blowing out candles and festivities. Then somewhere along the line I just wished I could go somewhere on this day and just hide. In the most recent chapters, I've began a tradition of these birthday reflections and the countdowns leading up to them. This post continues that sacred tradition.

As you know, these reflections are conversations I have with who I was, who I am and who I'm working on being. Let's unlock Chapter 30...

Dear Linda,

To who you were
I'm so grateful to you for being such a dreamer. You did what you could with what you had.
No, 30 isn't old at all baby girl.
You have no idea what trauma, toxic or healing mean but someday you'll understand and that will change a lot.
Starting those dreadlocks was a good idea!
If I could, I'd tell you you take it a bit easy - it all works out...even when it doesn't....

To who you are
How and when did we get here?! I look at the mirror and I almost can't recognise you...you so grown! (Even though you still look 18)

Ereng weight gain in our lifetime? You will go down as the legend who appropriated weight. Different is okay.
This world definitely needs a little bit of crazy - don't stop contributing your fair share.
I'm proud of how you always move...(no, your dance moves are not implied lol)


To who  you will become
Homegirl, I'm hoping that you're health bunny.
I hope that you haven't lost our smile.
Never forget how far you've come.
Never lose your sense of wonder...

Happy birthday!  🥂